Feeling Trapped

Back after a long break from writing. For some reason, every time i start to write i decide that i am going to do this on a regular basis to ease my stress, but it just doesn't seem to work out. The past few weeks might have been more stressful than i would have liked them to be but hey, this is life. You chose your path and then you stick to it. Which brings me to the current issue i have, which i am sure many of you have experienced, feeling trapped. 

There are different interpretations of "feeling trapped". Some say that they feel trapped in the relationship that they are in, others feel trapped in the life path they have chosen, and yet others feel trapped with their lifestyle. Doctors say that feeling trapped might lead to depression, but i don't think that is true. You might feel trapped inside and end up showing a happy front on the outside. 

Choices you make might not be the most calculated ones, but you try to risk it for once in your life. Boom. You fall flat on your face. Sometimes i feel like that. I have seen the difference in life of where i have been and where i am now. There are positives as well as negatives. Maybe now the negatives are taking over the positive vibes. I have always searched for a middle path to achieve acceptance from everyone, but over time i have learnt that you just can't please every one. Most of the time you will piss off people. 

Speaking from experience, most of us i think hold our inner most thoughts from our loved ones. We tend to not share what we are actually feeling because we might hurt their feelings or we might get them worried. We keep it within us and let it build. You enter a situation where you can't get out of. This is a life long path chosen. Or is there a way? Trying to make changes might seem difficult but i know it is possible, just need the guts to stand up and make a shaking change. 

A lot of the books i have read and most classes in college tend to tell us to evaluate ourselves, where we stand and what we ant from life. We need to evaluate what our priorities are and are those priorities meaningful. Do we achieve a work-life balance? Are the goals we want from life realistic and achievable? I am not trying to turn this post into a self-help book, but honestly i don't buy these tactics. Personally, i was never able to fit my life into these perimeters nor was i able to set goals for my life according to these perimeters.

Currently i feel trapped with no way out, but i know that there is a way out of it. There is a way to move away from this life experience and create another experience for myself. I think this whole, feeling stuck problem arises when life becomes mundane and not really adventurous. Sometimes its also about not being able to express your self, not having a ear who is willing to listen. Another gut arises when someone is in a financial difficulty and the need to stay stuck in mundane job because it pays well. 

Fear is another reason we tend to resist life. I, possibly resist my own expansion because i might be fearful of expanding. People want better lives but deep down they are afraid of leaving the present life and changing their lifestyle, despite the fact that the present life is miserable. Our mind is designed to cling to the familiar territories? Or have we not trained our mind to accept unfamiliar territories? Clinging on to familiar territories tends to create a life situation that resists the movement of life, hence the feeling of stagnancy.

Break out. Be free. One day i will achieve it. I will let you know how. 

“Those who speak of progression but are afraid of change are self-repressed and therefore unable to reach any further than their eyes can already see.” 
― Criss Jami